Life 4Him

This being the end of the semester and with lots of hard finals to study and take, I haven't had time to get online and post all of my Enjoy The Silence notes on Facebook and I haven't been able to put up my reflections here. But here I am, awake at 6a.m., and all I can think about is what God is going to do with me.

That's a good thing though, right? We should be constantly thinking about God, His plan for us, and what we can do to fulfill that plan... right? Sometimes I wonder who is doing the thinking in my mind, if it's me, arguing with everything that is running around in my head, or if it is God, telling me that this is what He wants, this is what I need to do, and this is where my life is going to end up, and it's going to be the greatest thing to ever happen.

Surprisingly this semester I have run into the problem with people who are Christians not willing to be "super Christian". I'm sorry, but what in the heck does that mean!? What do you mean you don't want to be "super religious"!? Would you just rather be classified as a Christian but not be obligated to act like it!? WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO WHEN SUPPOSED "FOLLOWERS OF CHRIST" THINK IT IS TOO MUCH TO DEVOTE THEIR LIVES, THE ONES THAT THEY ALREADY GAVE TO HIM, TO FULLY FOLLOWING HIS COMMANDS!?!?

It hurts me when I talk to people and they tell me "well, I'm not super religious" or "I'm not really that radical". I am part of a Christian fraternity, and there are people in it who don't think it is acceptable or cool to be completely 100% for God. I just want to weep, knowing that there are men that I know who flat out refuse to be as passionate about God as some of the other men in the fraternity.

And why is it so hard to talk about your faith? Why is it that people cannot look into the life of a friend, possibly their best friend, and see the pain and suffering that they are enduring in their day-to-day life because they don't know the awesome love and grace and freedom and mercy of the God you call your Father and Savior? Why can't you just suck up your pride for 10 minutes to let them know about the one who should be oozing out of you 24/7? I promise that they won't bite you. I promise they won't punch you in the face. They aren't going to shoot you or call the police and have you sent to jail. The worst thing, THE ABSOLUTE WORSE THING that could happen from sharing your faith to someone is them not wanting to listen. If you tell a friend, they may even decide they don't want to be your friend anymore. OH NO! What are we to do? I know, let's not obey the Most High. Let's just ignore what the King of Kings and Lord of Lords has commanded us to do. That is definitely better than losing that friend that you really care about. The one that you party with. The one that "lets you be you". The friend that is probably keeping you from God.

I want to break down and cry for the laziness and complete disregard in doing what God has commanded us to do. I feel God calling me to do something, and I have put it off long enough. Soon enough you will all know what I have decided to do. It is life-altering, life-changing, and yes, I am for sure going to lose some friends, friends that I love, because of this choice. But I know that God is calling me to this, and I can no longer stay on the ship that is heading in the opposite direction.

"See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland."
- Isaiah 43:19